We recently watched the movie The Tooth Fairy.
Anyway, Simeon liked it. Mostly.
At the end of the movie The Rock aka Dwayne Johnson aka The Tooth Fairy does a good deed, then vanishes.
Simeon stares slack-jawed at the screen. “I lost my mama. She disappeared, too.”
His little boy heart knows there’s a hole. Something mama shaped is missing. And he doesn’t know why.
One day he saw her and things got loud and mama got in trouble, suddenly she was missing. And I was witness to the fact that somehow, without ever being told, he knew he lost his mama.
Now he needs an explanation. He needs a story that makes sense. The one I’ve been giving him – Mama made some unwise choices, and now she needs to work really hard to make things right again, but she still loves you and will always be your mama and nothing can ever change that….- that explanation just isn’t good enough. That one doesn’t really make sense.
It breaks my heart for him. As toxic as she is, I worry. I wonder. He doesn’t want to live with his mama, he doesn’t want to visit with her, but he wants to know that she’s there. And to him, she’s disappeared. She’s simply vanished and he may never know her again.
It may be right, but it’s not easy and it’s not perfect and it’s not fair. That’s a tough lesson to learn at three.